What is it that keeps me awake all night? I shut my eyes but my body and mind are restless as I think about the things I desire. My desire for sleep versus my desire for something more unattainable creates an endless battle throughout the night. It’s a battle in which sleep seems to always lose and my mind can’t seem to drift away from the unattainable affection I so desperately crave. At first I thought it was just the feelings that come along with a simple school boy crush, but now I know it is much more than that. I’ve been recently spending most nights, such as this one, thinking about what attracts one person to another. Lust? Love? Or something far more complicated? I thoroughly believe I have found the most beautiful person in the world and no matter how hard I try, no body else seems to interest me in the slightest. It’s ironic really. The one person who is capable of bringing me happiness, is also the source of most of my pain. It’s true, you can want something/someone to the point that it hurts. 

2:51 am  •  27 January 2012  •  2 notes